This past month and a half has been a roller coaster of emotions…I’ve been kicked down. I got treated horribly for no reason. I picked myself back up, and got kicked down again. I made some poor decisions, let too many things get to my head, and tried to make something work that wasn’t there.
Well, I’m going through the “kicked down” phase right now.
Instead of sobbing, gorging myself with fattening foods, and listening to The Weepies on repeat…
I’m picking myself back up, and doing this how it should have been done a long time ago.
I was raised to be a strong, independent woman and I’m going to make my mom proud =)
I have a lot of things wrong with me. I’m too sensitive, opinionated, loud, and just obnoxiuos in general. I get pretty clingy and have trouble accepting the truth.
But I KNOW that I am a good person, and that I deserve way better than this.
Some of you are going to be reading this and thinking, “Wow…some boy must have pissed her off”.
Well, sadly I’m talking about myself. I can be immature and point fingers, but this is all a result of my poor decision making. No one had me at gun point violently forcing me to do what I did. I had good friends advising me against it, but being the stubborn thing I am, I trudged on.
It’s time for some self-improvement.
Advice to myself (and maybe others)
-Forgetting the past is impossible, but you don’t need to live in it
-You are the only person who should be in control of your happiness
-Learn to appreciate the people that love you and want the best for you
-Be at peace with everything. It all happens for some crazy reason
-Believe in yourself
So….I’m sorry if anyone was expecting to get a big chuckle from this blog post =). It was something I needed to do for me.
And thank you so much to everyone that has been reading. It means SO much to me.